Solara88

I direly miss your essece and vibe. Our undeniable chemistry electrifying the air. Every nerve in the body ignited. Intensely aware of your presence. Skin warms and tingles with the rush of random memories and sensations. Mind roams exploring detailed crevices of your savory form. Lava soothingly achy, sizzling between these legs. Scorching, raw desire courses through the veins. Drunken with passion. My soul craves yours. I fiddle and fidget. I continue to lust in silence. I sit beside you knowing you are not mine. The worst way to miss you.

Covered in the wings of shadows, awaiting you to realize. That I was always your one, hovering in the background of your sidelines. Ready for the slightest indication that you need me. Swallowing my pain to suit your needs. Your blinded to the willingness and weight of my sacrifice. Permanently changing and scarring my life for the smallest dose of acknowledgement or Fulfillment from you. Never able to truly let go, I am eternally altered by your presence in my heart. Your memory around every corner, branded into my brain. Loving you so much, I bleed willfully. Searing my heart with your blistering iron as you speak of a greater lo

This flinching pain continually flows Like the morning dew will not cease to fall Barren, stripped of nothing more to shelter me Such vulnerability is humbling Grasping such magnitude of loss This heart will always remember Loving you so completely I rip apart this heart, trying to mend yours The rejection is overwhelming Thriving to understand how loving so much isn't enough Staring at my face unmoved, as you glimpse the intensity of such a sacrifice You were my ultimate passion I thrived to be your pleasure Yet this loneliness sewn into the soul Not your nature to love so freely So broken inside, your lacking compassion Self

Paranoia settles within itself. Snuggled amid the seething insulation of my psyches padded room. Atrophy of the brain. The hardening of the heart. My soul is smothered in your rancid fog. Your arrogant stench makes my stomach curdle. You no longer contribute to my growth. But you aide in my demise. Bizarre, twisted head games. Supported by cunning deception. My self-esteem falters in your presence. Identity lost in another era. Personality is continually dissected. Jagged slices to suit your pleasure and indulgence. I depart in extreme desperation. No longer stricken by your manipulation. I have emerged immune. Your vileness

I am my own affliction. I have yet to pursue a cure for my condition. The outside no hint or detection. The inside thrives on the pain of cruel rejection. I do not cower under your stare so full of persecution. My views were never swayed by your self-righteous persuasion. I can not succumb to mindless, hypocritical religion. Dealing with your never-ending criticizing me in every situation. How do I serve a God who spit in my face when he designed me lacking some essential skills of self-preservation. I watch the lies develop and that same blank smile plastered, never a hesitation. As you boldly preach and judge in controlling domina

There is nothing about me left to make you stay My insatiable passion for what is lacking tinged with bitterness Feeding the emptiness, the loneliness Disfiguring mine own heart with a constant reel of memories Eyes haunted by vast sins of pleasure Embracing this ghost of a soul My lust is not enduring Watching the dirt shoveled upon this transparent coffin Conflicted struggle to accept the life that is Teeming with envious rage for the life that isn't New found self-control is humbling Stitching wounds with discarded, rotten puppet strings Face portraying nothing

Bitterness feeding the torched light in a vacant heart Head nestled in my bosom Your tears streaming, Striving to remove the residue collected on this marred skin Time binding the iridescent tape to the love of my tragedy Discord the only portrayed tendency left on the spool Fingertips' clutching your hair as mind clamors a defense for your knowingness But to let go of this delicate tendril is wishing away The wispy breeze of this humid, onyx night Disregarding comfort painted by the lustrous moon Caressing the core of honesty with fluid hands While tears curve the face of stone Insecurity bellowing unclaimed acceptance, echoing

My throat tightens and constricts as I stare into the night. All thoughts focused on you. Stomach in knots as I swallow a swell of yearning for you. I long to peel back every layer and know you to your core. I am unashamed as I covet your mind, body, and strength. I love your twisted brain. For mine is compatible. I savor our passion and your understanding. I need every bit of your essence to be content with this life. Your words and memories to treasure forever. We appreciate each other as we recognize the damaged people in this hollow trunk. Intensity etched in your eyes as you search deep in my face. Your knowingness and accept